1. WELL, THIS IS THE 16TH OF AUGUST, 1983 & THIS IS A DREAM I HAD SEVERAL NIGHTS AGO but I failed to record it until now, so it's getting a bit hazy but I can still remember the major scenes, & because of someone involved who may need its encouragement I think I'd better relate it. There may have been more but this is the only part that I can remember. Often I have the feeling that there was something that went before as sort of a prelude to the dream or a preparation or introduction but it fades out & apparently was not even necessary to recall as long as I recall the major scenes & the main message.
2. BUT IT SEEMS WE WERE GOING TO LIVE IN THIS PARTICULAR HOTEL, sort of a luxury hotel‚ somewhat rambling & motel–like with cottages, etc., & the hotel manager was quite a Dapper Dan or Jim Dandy, as we used to call them, a real "dude" as they used to be nicknamed, meaning a very dressy sort of fellow, & I realise now that most of them were probably homos or so-called gays, not very gay actually, because they were quite effeminate & very dressy & extremely fond of high style & fashion, etc., just like a woman.
3. SO THIS HOTEL MANAGER CAME DANCING UP TO ME in his twittery sort of way & he said, "Now if you're going to stay here you're going to have to dress better than that!" And I said, "Well‚ I don't have anything else to wear but what you see," which is never very fancy nor expensive. In fact some may think I dress a bit carelessly.
4. "WELL," HE SAID, "TO BE MY GUEST HERE YOU MUST DRESS ACCORDINGLY," & rather condescendingly said, "Oh I have a suit I can let you wear which would be far more appropriate & I'll get it for you." So he danced out & pranced back in soon with this beautiful what we used to call gabardine or seersucker or a kind of shiny silk type of suit, rather bright & gaudy for someone of my age. But I somewhat reluctantly but obligingly decided to try to keep him happy since it seemed to mean so much to him & I didn't really care, so I tried it on. It seemed the coat fitted fairly well, it was a bit small, but because he was a very tall fellow the pants were too long.
5. IT WAS SORT OF LIKE THE SYSTEM TRYING TO MAKE ME CONFORM & dress me up & making me acceptable to the traditions & conformities & standards of the modern World, & you can imagine how fitting that was or rather how unfitting for me‚ a confirmed non-conformist & idol-smasher, what's the word for it?—Iconoclast—& non-traditionalist, a real revolutionary rebel as I am. I was a little uncomfortable & embarrassed & felt a little ridiculous in this fancy suit. He said, "Well, the pants are a bit long but we can fix that very quickly & we'll just cut them off & re-hem them & everything will be just fine." So he helpfully helped me remove them & he danced & pranced out again.
6. WELL, IT SEEMED I WAS IN SOME KIND OF A BEDROOM in this motel when all of this was going on & so as I was standing there undressed I looked about for something to do & lo & behold, looking over at the bed I suddenly discovered that a very beautiful woman was lying in bed sort of curled up like she was cold & trying to get warm & totally uncovered with no sheet or blanket over her & sound asleep! I looked & lo & behold, it was Ho's Esther, beautiful ravishingly gorgeous, queenly‚ magnificent Esther! So I thought, poor girl, here she's cold & all curled up trying to keep warm like a child or baby will do in its sleep when it's lost its coverings, so I thought, well‚ I'd better go & cover her up.
7. SO I WENT OVER & STARTED TO DRAW THE COVERS OVER HER BEAUTIFUL DELIGHTFUL, DELECTABLE BODY when the thought occurred to me, that I could get her much warmer much quicker if I would crawl in bed with her & cuddle up around her to get her warm right away. So that seemed a very pleasant attractive idea to which I promptly responded & gently, quietly eased myself into the bed trying not to disturb her & began to pull the covers up over both of us & snuggle up beside her.
8. BUT IMMEDIATELY SHE MORE OR LESS HALF AWOKE & TURNED OVER & FLUNG HER ARMS AROUND ME & clung to me tightly almost desperately like she had almost been waiting for me‚ so thankful that I had come! I was very pleasantly surprised & very happy & very glad that I had responded to my impulse to try to help her & comfort her & get her warm & I was quite satisfied that I had done the right thing, & she seemed to be not merely happy but almost exuberant & delighted with my love & physical bodily contact. So we began to cuddle a little tighter & a little bit more & become even more affectionate, so that we were caressing & petting & loving & making love & she seemed to be absolutely almost deliriously happy that I had come, & I wasn't at all unhappy either! I was very thankful that I had obeyed my impulse to try to help her out, originally purely unselfishly, but I was getting quite a bit of compensation out of it.
9. SO WE WERE SOON VERY ARDENTLY MAKING LOVE TOGETHER, & at that point was where I woke up very stiff & hard & almost regretting that I hadn't finished the dream! But then I looked over to my dream girl lying there beautifully beside me flat on her back & totally uncovered in this warm tropical climate in just the right position, so that I thought, well, we just can't let this go to waste & why don't I take advantage of this situation as well? So I quietly rolled over on top of her‚ I thought I would work as fast as possible so as to try not to wake her up too much since she requires a lot of sleep, but she immediately began to oh & ah & hug me & say, "Oh this is wonderful! This is such a nice way to wake up! Thank you!"
10. SHE ALWAYS TRIES TO MAKE ME FEEL VERY WELCOME, SO IT DIDN'T TAKE US LONG. I was soon inserted & we were concerted together in our concerted efforts of ardent love until satisfied, at which time eventually, after considerable affectionate loving & caressing & petting, exchanging loving words of endearment & thank-you's‚ I rolled off‚ catching my instrument in a few tissues & lay beside her with her head & beautiful body cuddled in my arm, both of us heaving sighs of contentment & satisfaction & very happy & fulfilled.
11. SO THAT LITTLE DREAM CERTAINLY HAD TWO VERY HAPPY ENDINGS! Now just what it was for I don't know, & just what it meant is a little difficult for me to interpret because I still don't quite get the meaning of the first part about the fancy hotel manager trying to get me to conform & dress up to his fancy ways, except that it certainly showed that I just don't fit into the usual System. And as though to prove it‚ I was quite ready to climb in bed with the first woman I saw there, our beautiful‚ gorgeous, delectable, delightful, de-lovely Esther, & fire away!—And she seemed to be very happy about it.
12. SO IT WAS ALMOST LIKE THE PICTURING OF TWO EXTREMES, trying to make a Systemite out of me when in heart & mind & body I am a non-conforming iconoclast revolutionary rebel who needs freedom of every kind, including sex! Perhaps that was part of the point of the dream, I don't know for sure exactly, but the thought also occurred to me that perhaps dear Esther needs help or prayer right now or comfort or love, & this dream was to cause me to pray for her, which I immediately did & asked the Lord to bless her & help her & comfort her & give her love & contentment & meet her needs whatever they might be, in case this dream was a sign to me or a message for me from the Lord or from Esther that she needed my help & my love & my comfort, which she got in the dream, & I hope that, because I responded affirmatively to her seeming need for help & prayer, I trust my prayers were answered & that, wherever she was & whatever was the problem or the need‚ that it has been satisfied & that she has been comforted.
13. PERHAPS EVEN WHEN SHE RECEIVES WORD OF THIS DREAM SHE WILL BE ENCOURAGED & COMFORTED & perhaps what she needed was a bit of our loving comfort & encouragement in the life that she leads which has many hardships & battles & problems & difficulties, as we all have‚ but some perhaps even weigh a little bit more heavily upon her sometimes because of her weaknesses of the flesh & past problems & whatever. So Esther dear, whatever it was for, there you are! Now you have it & now you know that I love you & am most willing to try to comfort & encourage you, & if you were here beside me in the bed as you were there, I would certainly follow through & give you all the love & attention & affection, comfort & encouragement that I possibly could, & I hereby do by this dream & this Letter for you!
14. SO GOD BLESS YOU & KEEP YOU & ENCOURAGE YOU & COMFORT YOU, STRENGTHEN YOU, HELP YOU & LOVE YOU with all His might‚ as I did in my dream, because I do love you & I would certainly love you like that if you were here, & I can love you like that in the Spirit right there! So praise the Lord! Let's make love! Amen? Hallelujah! Thank You Jesus! Praise the Lord for sex! Amen?—The sexual physical fulfilment of love & lots of love, & I do love you & I want to help you in any way I can. Please let me know if there is something you need. I really enjoyed that last love letter you wrote me & will always love you & consider you as one of my dearest wives & queens. In Jesus' name, amen. Praise the Lord! Thank You Jesus!
15. DO YOU NEED LOVE, COMFORT & ENCOURAGEMENT? Well, God bless you! Dream of me! Amen? Thank You Jesus! Praise the Lord! Hallelujah! I love you! Let's dream together! In Jesus' name, amen!